Future Endeavors

Many of you have been asking what my future hold since in two weeks I will be unemployed. Sounds sad, doesn't it? Happy New Years! Now you have 48 hours to move out and move on with your life. To say these decisions were easy would be a gross understatement so here is how I came about my choices in case some readers  were confused. Some don't agree with all my decisions, but as I said, I like to "marinate" on my decisions and although there have been a lot of decisions I haven't clearly thought out, I would like to think I am making  the right decision for me at this point in time.

First, I didn't get my program extension which was BOGUS  because 1) that was my back up plan and 2) I thought i was a good cast member 3) I hate being rejected for no reason.  In reality, getting an extension wouldn't have been the best because in six months I would have been no further in the company then I am right now and still probably hating making minimum wage. I also hated living in CP housing and all their rules but  I loved my job about 88% of the time. Sure, there were times where I didn't want to be there, people annoyed me, I had to work with cast members  I didn't care for, it was hot, it was cold, I was cranky, you know the deal, but overall I loved my job. Knowing I can put a smile on some kids face for winning a stupid plastic duck we got on Page 39 in Oriental Trading was really awesome. Going the extra step for a guest not because I had to but because I wanted to made me realize that I do enjoy people. It's like in the movie "How the Grinch Stole Christmas" and his heart suddenly gets bigger. Not getting my extension was a kick to the gut and I was very confused as to why I didn't get it especially since I wanted to stay down here longer. I also knew since I didn't get it I....

2) Didn't get a professional Internship. If you can't get a program extension for a job you were good at, got positive feedback in, and had a good record card , then you won't get a Professional Internship where hundreds if not thousands of people are itching to get. It came as no surprise when I looked up if I got the job or not and it said "No longer in consideration."  For those wondering I applied to the two housing ones. Basically being an RA. A job I did for 3 years, HRA for 2, rookie of the year, RA of the year, and at one point thought I wanted to make my career. After that news, I week later I went to

3) Casting, where I was laughed at because there aren't any job openings in January. Sure, there are jobs in custodial or housekeeping, but those weren't the jobs I was looking to do. Discouraged, I put in for as many transfers in the recreation department as possible (since I couldn't for security) and went on my sad way. For good measure I applied to SeaWorld, I wasn't qualified for them, either.

Ah security you say! Didn't Sarah graduate with honors with a degree in Criminology? Why yes, she did. What is she going to do with her degree? O grad school called? Outstanding! Well is she going to go?

No. I know, I know. You might think I didn't marinate this decision but this was the decision I marinated in the most. I ended up getting a call from a grad school saying if I wanted to start in January I could. That's awesome, but since it was 6 weeks away I had alot to think about. The degree would have been an MS in CJ and although it has been my childhood dream to catch someone on John Walsh's most wanted list, I havne't really entertained the idea of being a cop in a while. I came down here thinking I would contemplate what I wanted in life but it just made me more confused. I decided the other day that 1) if I don't know if  I want to be in that field forever, I shouldn't go to grad school right now 2) I can defer and 3) I have serious commitment issues as it is and two years is a long time for something I'm only eh on.

Speaking of commitment issues I'm seeing someone. He's okay. No but really, he is.

To quote one of my favorite movies, "Do what you love and F the rest." Well, I don't know what I really love besides having fun, making people happy, and making a difference so finding what path I want to take is very hard. I ask myself daily what I want to do and I still always come up blank. Weird, right? I'm normally always planned out and opinionated but I am indecisive at this point in my life. I thought I was too young to have a mid life crisis.

Since I was hired seasonally I will be back often to work. Again, some might find that decision odd but it's my decision so hush. There are a few rules for when I come home though so take note (I already ran these by mom so she knows the deal).
1) no asking what i'm going to do with my life. I will let you know when I make a decision. Mom is allowed to ask me after 10 days.
2) No mentioning Mickey or anything that will remind me of Disney for two weeks
3) I will be in a mourning period. I keep telling people that "I'm moving, not dying" but it will still be awful when I leave sunny Florida.


Thanks, folks, for being supportive of me during this transitional period in my life. It's swell to have good people like you in life.